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Demolition 2011 - The Whole Shebang

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1.
Halfway 03:56
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You want to know what I’m made of I never questioned your capacity to love I only ever wondered where we’d stand when push comes to shove It’s time to raze our defense cut the razor wire, tear down the fence I’ve still got my purposes and I know you’ve still got your intents Halfway, meet me there Halfway, meet me there Halfway, meet me there Show me that you still care Somewhere between getting dirty and staying clean I found myself a new mode of survival I’m living low cutting losses so I can show I’d rather be a lover than a rival I still want the mystery I still want the suspense I’ll embrace the history and I’ll drop all my pretense I’ve still got my purposes and I know you’ve still got your intents Halfway, meet me there Halfway, meet me there Halfway, meet me there I’ll show you that I still care I still care I still care © 2011 Mike Hougardy
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A Feeling That I'm After 03:47
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I built it up inside my head so beautiful Conceived in last calls and laughter It was a time like no other time I can’t recall And one I hope I won’t soon recapture You lied to me, you always say that you’re going to say goodbye It’s not a feeling that I can describe It’s just a feeling that I’m after Drop by drop you made it to the top and I was sorry to hear that you fell Hard as I tried to keep it all inside I just couldn’t help from wishing you well You lied to me, you always say that you’re going to say goodbye It’s not a feeling that I can describe It’s just a feeling that I’m after Set ‘em up I’ll knock ‘em down Can’t the house buy another round? Set ‘em up I’ll knock ‘em down Over, under and around I feel it coming down © 2011 Mike Hougardy
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I Got in the Way 03:33
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Now that it’s real There’s a quiet desperation in the post reveal All feels lost But this kind of indiscretion doesn’t come without a cost I got in the way of something that I never should have gotten in the way of Big girls want to play But they don’t know a thing about what little boys are made of My heart’s so heavy How it’s grown It’s more than I can manage on my own I can’t divine, just what it is I’m after Oh, I’ll say I’m doing fine and bury it with laughter There’s a cold comfort in Pretending it’s improving But I’m frozen in your headlights and I don’t think that I’m moving I got in the way of something that I never should have gotten in the way of Big boys want to play But they don’t know a thing They don’t know a thing Now my heart is fully grown It’s more than I can manage on my own © 2011 Mike Hougardy
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Just Letting Go 03:02
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Everything I used to know It's comin' around again I wouldn't mind the sounds so much If I could just detach from them And failings I thought I'd long written off as dead Lately keep replaying Over and over in my head Maybe this is growin' up or Maybe growin' old Maybe this is me just letting go Maybe this is me just letting go I'm tired of all these anthems Filled with pity and self doubt And the weight of my insecurity Is startin' to wear me out If talent is a gift of God Expectations are his curse See they've got theirs and I've got mine And I'm not sure which are worse Maybe this is just desserts or Maybe just for show Maybe this is me just letting go Maybe this is me just letting go Why have I held on to ideals That should have been gone from me In 1983 I was half my age full of lager and full of rage I thought that I could change the world But now I see The world's changed me
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Sparkless 02:44
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Discourse - close to the source I said I wouldn't miss you A shot at life wrapped up in a tissue Refrain - this conversation sounds the same Over and over The radio plays Crimson and Clover Sometimes I feel most alive in the darkness Wrapped up tight in a cheesecloth like a carcass Sparkless You got doubt - but are you in or out Tell me what you're thinkin' It's over if you'd just let it sink in Cut ties - don't over analyze Ashes to ashes Get off of this ride before it crashes Sometimes I feel most alive in the darkness Wrapped up tight in a cheesecloth like a carcass Sparkless © 2011 Mike Hougardy
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Going Under 03:21
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I slide into oblivion carelessly embracing The folly that I'm chasing Holding hands while hearts are ripped asunder And when you leave me I think I'm going under Is that all you want Is that all you need It wouldn't take a lot To get me to concede That I miss the rain The lightning and thunder And when you leave I think I'm going under I stand beside myself And think about the life I lived as someone else Over the years and the distance © 2011 Mike Hougardy
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World Where Dreams are Made 03:12
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I've seen this trick before It starts when you believe there's something more I'm traveling through time And if you ever change your mind I'll be waiting right here for you tomorrow It's a hollow victory song Where the winners are forced to sing along But the losers these days They just hang on every phrase And hope that they can sing along tomorrow I still get caught up in The world where dreams are made White smoke and mirrors Line the pathway down to the promenade Strip down to your memory It's all that's left to me I remember I remember I've seen this trick before St. Peter's checking ID at the door It's five bucks to get in If you're free of all your sin I'll be waiting right here for you tomorrow © 2011 Mike Hougardy
8.
Hero 02:28
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Played the hero to the end A man's not made of steel my friend He's flesh and bones and blood And you ought to know it Life is what you bring to it It takes more than a little bit If you had so much to say Why couldn't you show it To hell with you To hell with me This old scene just aint what it used to be I'm coming off a bit too strong I've let it go a bit too long But I know at least Half of this is me I see now that you weren't satisfied And I can't blame you for that I can't blame you for feeling sorry about Where you're at I couldn't blame you For everything I couldn't see How come you were so quick to Blame me Played the hero to the end You blew your horn, and bit my hand And all we found is Neither of us could bend Life is no great mystery You try your best and hope to see All your troubles work out In the end To hell with you To hell with me This old scene just aint what it used to be © 2011 Mike Hougardy
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Out of Your Reach 03:48
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Assign responsibility Twist it around the way you want it to be When it's falling out of your reach Deny that it's a part of me Just some way that I'm choosing to be When it's falling out of your reach I've been living in this world for all my life And I get the sense you don't believe it When it's falling out of your reach The father, son and the holy ghost The ones that you rely on the most When it's falling out of your reach You try so hard to add it up Keep your grip upon the golden cup When it's falling out of your reach I've been living in this world for all my life And I get the sense you don't believe it When it's falling out of your reach I've been living in this world for all my life And I get the sense you don't believe it And it's falling out of your reach © 2011 Mike Hougardy
10.
Save the World 02:40
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Save the World if you want, I won't pretend it... Means all that much too me, you fail to see I don't have the means to defend it Pray for our souls if you will, we won't deny you... Got a lot of loose ends to tie If you scream and cry and deny See what it'll buy you Wasn't it you who said Temptation was a crime Looks like you slipped a bit and got taken in this time Wasn't it you who said Success was so sublime Looks like you slipped a bit and got taken in you got taken in Wasn't it you who said It's only now and then Looks like you slipped a bit and got taken in again Wasn't it you who said You don't remember when Looks like it's coming back you got taken in you got taken in Your hard line is getting hard to take this time And true to form - against the norm All night You talk in terms of black and white When you play to win You get taken in © 2011 Mike Hougardy
11.
End of Pride 03:41
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The Big Dipper's hangin' low In a late September sky I knew that you had to go But I thought you'd say goodbye Well that's the price that I pay For the good sense that I lack If I wanted you to stay I should have loved you back I believe that we've seen the End of Pride It's taken fifteen years And a thousand tears To make it through to the other side Well I often feel your ghost As I walk around this town But the details I miss most Are the ones I can't chase down Clove cigarettes and Opium Cut right through to me and you Faint whispers of a bygone sound When I hear the Thompson Twins It's like you're still around I believe that we've seen the End of Pride It's taken fifteen years And a thousand tears To make it through to the other side The Big Dipper's hangin' low In a late September sky I knew that you had to go But I thought you'd say goodbye Well that's the price that I pay For the life that I've led You weren't always in my heart But you're always in my head I believe that we've seen the End of Pride It's taken fifteen years And a thousand tears To make it through to the other side © 2011 Mike Hougardy
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Boom,Boom,Boom 03:16
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I've been about as down as I can get And I know that I ain't seen the bottom yet There's a vein runnin' down my neck That keeps beatin' out time 'til we hit the deck It goes Boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom This is so wrong Boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom This is so wrong There are seven ways a man can die But there's only one that I'm willing to try In a rocket racing 'cross the sky Like a firework on the Fourth of July I'll go Boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom This is so wrong Boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom This is so wrong A man is his pain He's a perfect storm of lust and shame He's a bait and switch He's a confidence game That little voice screamin' in your brain That goes Boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom This is so wrong Boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom This is so wrong © 2011 Mike Hougardy
13.
Geoff, I Hope You're Feeling Better 02:56
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Guess I won't be calling you brother I can see that I won't be calling you friend And you will never know How small humiliations grow Out of all the things you say in the end Geoff, I hope you're feeling better About everything you've done Geoff, I hope you're feeling better Then at least there will be one There's one thing I wouldn't miss Tell me Geoff, How's your God taking all of this Has he bent his rules So you can meet your needs Repealed all his commandments You no longer believe If there's one good thing That's come out of all of this... Geoff, I hope you're feeling better Geoff, I hope you're moving on Geoff, I hope you're feeling better Still I'm sorry that you've gone © 2011 Mike Hougardy
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Livin' on the Edge 02:27
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Hard times, getting all vicious The meat's spoiling but it looks delicious You never get what you need from a soundbite Where you gonna get your fuel tonight All this and still you deny it Your gonna break it so you just better buy it You seem down for trying to get it upright Where you gonna get your fuel tonight Where you gonna get your fuel tonight We're livin' on the edge of evolution We're trying to keep it fresh I'm going to take a pledge A resolution - to live it in the flesh I don't need anything more than this I don't need anything but a kiss, a kiss Hard times coming on quickly You look fine but you feel so sickly I want to say it, but it doesn't come out right Where you gonna get your fuel tonight Where you gonna get your fuel tonight We're livin' on the edge of evolution We're trying to keep it fresh I'm going to take a pledge A resolution - to live it in the flesh We're livin' on the edge We're livin' on the edge We're livin' on the edge We're livin' on the edge © 2011 Mike Hougardy
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Breathin' In 03:11
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Just like an old friend I'll pick you up When you're down and in I ain't ever gonna give you up I'll fill your cup When you're feelin' thin Our world won't last forever But it's always gonna spin And love will last as long as We're breathin' in Come back she said I'm a long, long way From your heart But you're inches from my head And that's where the achin' Always starts Our world won't last forever But it's always gonna spin And love will last as long as We're breathin' in Fools say it's now or never They have never seen forever Who'll say it's over When you're gone and I'm here I feel your breath in my ear Love will last as long as we're breathin' in Love will last as long as we're breathin' in Breathin' in Just like an old friend I'll pick you up When you're down and in I ain't ever gonna give you up © 2011 Mike Hougardy
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I'm All Over You 04:39
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We took advantage of the night We made our movements in the shadows - out of sight I didn’t know where to begin You filled in the places where my courage had worn thin I didn’t notice that the stars had clouded over I only hoped that you would know just what to do Tonight I’m all over you You showed me things I didn’t know How one tiny opening could let so much blood flow But all the pieces seemed to fit If fate was real we both agreed that this was it I didn’t notice that your eyes had clouded over I searched for anything that might get us through Tonight I’m all over you Just give me anything to ease my mind Just give me anything I can believe in Just give me anything that I can hold on to Tonight I’m all over you We took advantage of the night We made our promises and kept them out of sight And all the things that might have been You filled in the places where my memory had worn thin I didn't notice that the stars had clouded over I only wanted for my wish to be true I only wanted for my wish to be true Tonight I’m all over you I’m all over you © 2011 Mike Hougardy
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A Ghost on the Wire 03:59
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A ghost on the wire Said we don't have that much time to spend But the memory of desire Keeps us hanging on right 'til the end What would you say to me If I was your friend A ghost on the wire Keeps on whispering right in your ear And stoking the fire Behind the engine that drives all your fear You took all the fun away You cleared off the shelf You kept all the best information to yourself A ghost on the wire Wants to make one thing perfectly clear We're getting much closer To the world where we all disappear The world where we all disappear What would you say to me If you were still here What would you say to me © 2011 Mike Hougardy
18.
Oh Marie 03:15
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Oh Marie, be mine tonight.  Come to bed. turn out the light Lay your head up next to mine. Sleep will find you darling Everything will be alright in time Don't let a worry cross your mind Muster all the strength that you can find It'll be alright in time Oh Marie, pretend you're there And take your comfort in my care Marry your dreams tonight with mine Sweet surrender darling Everything will be alright in time Don't let a worry cross your mind Muster all the strength that you can find It'll be alright in time The bed's still holdin' your form But your swingin' on the porch Weathering the storm You hold the world in your hands So give me what I need to understand Oh Marie, you're almost there Just feel the static in the air Tonight your dreams lie next to mine Sleep has found you darling Everything will be alright in time Don't let a worry cross your mind Muster all the strength that you can find It'll be alright in time © 2011 Mike Hougardy
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Pothead Revisited 03:37
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Driving around all the backroads of my old hometown Settling scores and chasing demons Thinking a lot about apathy and smoking pot And it's all I can do to wash my hands of you Settling down in my old familiar stamping ground And I can already feel..... My motivation leaving Thinking a lot about what I have and what I've not And it's all I can do To try and keep from laying the blame on you Pothead Revisited I'm having trouble remembering what I just said Pothead Revisited You get the zeppelin - I'll raise the dead Trying to get back to the right side of a one way track But it's a long, long way From Hartford to Machias Looking around at the dirt we thought was sacred ground Wondering what our lunch money might buy us Pothead Revisited I'm having trouble remembering what I just said Pothead Revisited You get the zeppelin - I'll raise the dead Pothead Revisited I'm having trouble, I'm having trouble again Pothead Revisited You get the papers - I'll raise the bread Who am I kidding - trying to live life like a poem When it rains around here I always feel like going home Who am I kidding - trying to live life like a poem When it rains around here I always feel like going home © 2011 Mike Hougardy
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Saving Daylight 03:36
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Call off the night, I'm trying to save daylight I feel like a child trying to save daylight There's never enough I'm always wanting more I'd fall to the floor If you'd walk through that door Somewhere in my mind I've turned back the time To the days when we were all together Call off the night, I'm trying to save daylight I feel so uninspired I'm trying to save daylight There's never enough I'm always wanting more I'd set a line and hold it off forever If it would even the score I wish you were here with all of my might But it feels like trying to save daylight There's never enough I'm always wanting more I'll take the time and say it to you now Like I should have said it before It doesn't feel good Certainly not right Man it feels like trying to save daylight © 2011 Mike Hougardy
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Please Don't Worry 03:44
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I should have known better, I should have stayed straight I should have cut my hair and pulled my weight But our window back then - it was awful small You know the Soviets were going to kill us all Had a little bit of trouble saying when But I'll never go down that road again And looking back now I was a lucky guy Every single time I made it home alive I think I endangered all of my friends Shouting at the top of my lungs This is where the party never ends How do you stay in your lane When the lines get blurry But I ain't ever going back So Please don't worry Now my life's laid open wide It's still hard to take a deep look inside There's chapters filled with sharp regrets The stink of stale beer and old cigarettes How do you do it, make it right How do you get to sleep at night When all your prayers take so long to say I think I abandoned all of my friends Somewhere along the lost boy highway Where adolescence never ends The road is coming up fast And I'm in a hurry But I ain't ever going back So Please don't worry I've educated all of my friends I showed them all the exact point Where sense and moderation end How do you stay in your lane When the lines get blurry But I ain't ever going back So Please don't worry © 2011 Mike Hougardy
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Doin' Well 02:39
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I hope that they're all doin' well I hope that they're all doin' well The people that I once held under my spell I hope that they're all doin' well I hope that their lives are real fine Livin' with they're choices as I live with mine Standin' by their men Or walkin' the line I hope that they're all doin' fine I'm not above these judgements I make I live with my faults I admit my mistakes I'm not proud of half of what I've done But I'll make my peace Before the the other half comes There now baby my defenses are down I can't mend them without you around I'll say that I'm sorry I'll say I'm afraid I'll try to make up for this mess that I've made I hope that they're all doin' well I hope that they're all doin' well The people that I once held under my spell I hope that they're all doin' well © 2011 Mike Hougardy
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Take the Time (live) 04:42
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Sometimes I think that I will never get home again I sit around and think about my Sun in a supernova And me scrambling around to try and reconnect with My old friends Take the time Love will lift you if you let it Take the time Share of yourself lest you regret it Take the time And work for what you wish for You might get it The view from here, never seemed this clear It takes decision, to conquer fear I dreamed that I was caught up in a Constant state of motion And my last rotation Dropped me here Take the time You'll lose it if you bet it Take the time To prepare yourself lest you regret it Take the time And work for what you wish for You might get it You might get it Too much time sitting on the fence We couldn't see what we were up against The long slow fade I thought I'd never see It's happening to me It's happening to me © 2011 Mike Hougardy
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Hold On 03:50
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Autumn keeps her intentions clear The candle's burning brighter In the jack-o-lantern this year She's just cold enough to let you know That her worst days are on their way Bundle up before you go and... Hold on to what you believe It might be all that's left to you When you leave It's not enough to say you're feeling fine It's not enough to say you're mine Winter comes in like a lion Intent on swallowing your pride Humility is part of dying I don't care if you have hair Just so long as you keep trying to... Hold on to what you believe It might be all that's left to you When you leave It's not enough to say you're feeling fine It's not enough to say You're always going to be mine How long did they give you How long did they say There's something in the way that you live They can't take away Hope it springs eternal Is that somehow supposed to set us free Your strength sometimes it seems infernal See I could never carry you Half as long as you carried me, so... Hold on to what you believe It might be all that's left to you When you leave It's not enough to say you're feeling fine It's not enough to say You're always going to be mine It's not enough to say You're always going to be mine It's not enough to say You're always going to be mine 2011 Mike Hougardy
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Settling 02:58
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I was the last to leave Sent out the door With my heart upon my sleeve I stood before my Mother and she Couldn't bear to smile I guess that we won't see you for awhile Oh, what she didn't know Over and over again I hear them say Remember when and A long time ago and That's just the way that it is And when I hear their words So full of lost hope and full of hurt I'm oh so contrite But the worst of it is Settling happens all the time When you look at me that way It makes me feel as if there were Something more to say than Settling happens all the time When you look at me that way I feel I feel a bit like I am caught between Something good and Something left to prove And there are times when I I think about the days When we had nothing less than Nothing left to lose I've settled all my past regrets I've settled all my moral debts Would somebody look in my eyes And tell me that it's wrong To feel so happy I was the last to leave Sent out the door With my heart upon my sleeve I stood before my Father and he Couldn't help but smile I guess that we won't see you for awhile © 2011 Mike Hougardy
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Little Mary Sunshine (live) 03:22
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Current events Support my defense Time we started living in the Present tense I'm giving in to my decline I'm trying to see the world Through the eyes of Little Mary Sunshine Please let me be Please let me be the one Please let me be the one to remind you That this is what you wanted Yeah, this is what you wanted I should have know better Than test your resolve Lift my hope up to the heights Around which you revolve So what should I do Just take it on the chin Admit there's no big difference between giving up and giving in Please let me be Please let me be the one Please let me be the one to remind you That this is what you wanted Yeah, yeah, this is what you wanted Each little twist Reminds me of the first time The iron fist of Little Mary Sunshine Little Mary Sunshine Basking in the glow of Mary's sunshine Please let me be Please let me be the one Please let me be the one to remind you That this is what you wanted Yeah, yeah, yeah, this is what you wanted © 2011 Mike Hougardy
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Unguarded 03:04
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I retraced our steps And sure enough they led Right back to where this whole thing started We pace ourselves When we should run like hell Back to where we lived our lives unguarded So help yourself To all that I have left Embrace the shift, I finally realize what I’ve missed We face our cares With all the strength we share Open handed and open hearted It’s always there It’s always all been there It’s just we left the gates unguarded Inch by inch and stone by stone We built a fortress and and called it home And it was good. solid, safe and good The hope we built the walls around Gave a sense of solid ground When the stones came crashing down We found it was the walls we built our hopes around So help yourself To all that I have left Embrace the shift I finally realize what I’ve missed So help yourself To all I have to give Embrace the shift I finally understand how to live © 2011 Mike Hougardy
28.
No Evidence 02:31
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I don't want to hear anymore about Recompense Sit around a table and talk about common sense Confirm all your fear There's no evidence Of life out here Waste another year And you will only feel More bitter than you feel today Is it only me who feels like Everyone is going blind The closer we get The more we're behind Confirm all your fear There's no evidence Of life out here Waste another year And you will only feel More bitter than you feel today Cigarettes as you'll confess Have never been in your best interest But you know as well as me That we are only wasting time Until we realize The walls aren"t there to climb Say one more word And I'm over the top You never did know quite When to let a subject drop Confirm all your fear There's no evidence Of life out here Waste another year And you will only feel More bitter than you feel today © 2011 Mike Hougardy
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Count Them Up 03:18
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How many times Have I seen this sidewalk pass beneath my feet How many times Have I forgot the names of people that I meet How many times Have I made a promise I know I can't keep How many times Well count them up And multiply by two That's how many times a day That I think of you Well count them up And multiply by three How many times have you thought of me Do you ever think of me How many times Have I drank way to much coffee before bed How many times Have I lied awake with these thoughts in my head How many times Have I tried to call but lost my nerve instead How many times Well count them up And multiply by four I've thought of you this many times And now I'll think some more Well count them up And multiply by five I think of you to try and feel alive Do you know that I'm alive Have you ever lied awake at night Wondering what I'm really like Did you ever think that in the end You could possibly Want me as More than a friend How many times Have I driven by your house at 3 AM How many times Have I wanted to tell you just who I am How many times Have I driven by your house at 3 AM How many times Have I wanted to tell you just who I am How many times How many times Well count them up © 2011 Mike Hougardy
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Lay Down and Wait 04:33
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Sometimes my life gets blurry at the edges And I can't define what I feel I don't need some false sense of pride Deny it's real Sometimes the pages turn without effort And answers are easy to read Sometimes I lick my thumbs 'til they bleed I have the right to pretend I know In which direction I'll go I have the right to defy my fate Lay down and wait I explore my options Garner my resistance Against those who hold the horns And think that I should do the same I explore my options Garner my resistance Against those who hold the horns And think that I should feel ashamed I have the right to obtain my needs Through minor actions and deeds And if I choose to defy my fate Lay down and wait I'm here for you I'm here to do what you want me to I'm here for you Whether or not it is the right thing to do Sometimes my life gets blurry at the edges And I can't define what I feel I don't need some false sense of pride Deny it's real Sometimes the pages turn without effort And answers are easy to hate Sometimes you just have to Lay down and wait © 2011 Mike Hougardy
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It's All Mine 03:40
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Trying to get my head straight Thinking that it's too late Cutting it close to the bone Cause I can't leave it alone I feel like the only one Who knows that the world is ending But I just want to watch the parade It's alright It's enough I just never had the right stuff It's withering on the vine But it's all mine I'm going through the motions Of real human emotions I'm trying to think of something to say But I don't know what to say I feel like the only one Who knows that God is listening But she don't like what she hears It's alright It's enough I just never had the right stuff It's withering on the vine But it's all mine Up in the sitting room A young peacock sings He's trying to work his magic On some stupid little things I'm in the kitchen Turning iron into gold And I'm doing more or less What I am told I tried to take it too far I'm falling off the radar Nobody will even know when I'm gone But they'll want to sing along I feel like the only one Who knows that this is happening And I don't even know what it is It's alright It's enough I just never had the right stuff It's withering on the vine But it's all mine © 2011 Mike Hougardy
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Punch and Judy 02:58
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Punch and Judy - a comedy of fate The tragic beauty of a love so strong That it's turning into hate Everywhere the crowd calls out As Judy delivers the blows Somebody better pull the curtains tight Before their final act shows Sometimes they fight About the stupidest things Shut up now and hold me tight Ah, the tenderness he brings Sometimes she's right But most the time She doesn't even know When Punch has spoken There's no love lost And no bones broken Punch and Judy - the celebrated pair The curtain's closing On a poorly rehearsed Drawn out love affair Nobody told him there'd be times When he'd have to drop his script And ad lib somes lines Tired, worn out lines Sometimes they fight About the stupidest things Cinnamon bears, bouquets And wedding rings Sometimes she's right But most the time She doesn't even know When Punch has spoken And Punch has spoken © 2011 Mike Hougardy
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Sense of Direction 03:11
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I've spent the better part of my life Watching Winter turn to Spring Without ever blossoming I've seen better men than me Crumble to their knees Underneath the weight Of missed opportunities Are you hearing me Am I meaning this Are you hearing me Is there something out there I have missed I'm short on time And I've got a million things to do I need a sign Some time A colored line To see my course stays true Now that I've found my voice I've lost the will to use it And like in my darker days I fear that I am going to lose it If I lose myself Will you help me keep my Sense of direction If I find myself Alone without a coat Will you cover me And keep me warm With undying affection I'm not sure I'm sure I'm not sure I'm sure Of which way to go © 2011 Mike Hougardy
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Big Wide World 03:07
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I feel like it's time to hang up the mouse Put on some clothes and get out of the house There's a big wide world that's waiting just for you Pull the plug, cut the wires Try and divine what your heart desires There's a big wide world that's waiting just for you This tangled web leaves me cold But I'm not scared of growing old I'm just scared of growing old without you I believe there's something more Right outside your door Just keep searching until you find it Take a breath, step back from the screen You'll feel like you're waking up from a dream There's a big wide world and it's waiting just for you I believe there's something more Right outside your door A big wide world that's waiting just for you © 2011 Mike Hougardy
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Not A Leader Struck 04:58
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My charisma didn't get me far I'm drunk and solo holding up the bar Not a leader struck Please don't comment on the state I'm in My face is haggard, wit's a little thin Lost a bit of pluck Things they don't change As much as we'd like them to I'm more lost now than When I was with you Please don't tell me I can't change When your movements Are swift and strange Sorry I didn't answer any calls I got your messages I didn't have the balls I was unsure when I didn't know which comment Would be true Just to suck it up and say that I love you or Don't call again Things they don't change As much as we'd like them to I still can't seem to Express myself to you Please don't tell me I can't change When your movements Are swift and strange You've rebounded and you're hittin' stride You try to claim that our love hasn't died But been put on hold These other guys that you're runnin' to They're just the neighbor hoods Who'd like to nail you and I don't want to be told Things they don't change As much as we'd like them to You still find love Much quicker than I do Please don't tell me I can't change Please don't tell me I can't change Please don't tell me I can't change Please don't tell me I can't change © 2011 Mike Hougardy
36.
All Over Your Face 03:36
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I always see you laughing When I conjure up your face And the smile that's now betrayed by How you really felt about this place It's all over your face Only heaven knows How hard you really tried It takes a lot more strength to show yourself Than it does to keep it all inside It's all over your face It's all over your face Hoping there's laughter In the hereafter If only for the moment Before you slip away What I'm trying to get clear Is what exactly happened here And are you still the man Are you still the man That you were trying to be The one that you were just Dying to be I'll stop obsessing On making sense of Something that's clearly beyond reason Stop second guessing And try to learn a lesson Pain is real Pain is real Even when you can't see it Pain is real Pain is real Even when you can't see it It's all over It's all over © 2011 Mike Hougardy
37.
It's Fine to Say 03:38
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The let down is tangible It takes you by surprise The breadth of the circumstance Stares you straight in the eyes Day to day is bearable When there is nothing left to do Sometimes it just gets away from you It's fine to say I didn't want it anyway It's fine to say I feel a little blue It's fine to say I wouldn't have it any other way Sometimes it just gets away from you Sometimes it just gets away from you When you're caught up in the kind of moment That makes you realize that suddenly You're in a place you never thought you'd see Call it providence, but it's important To understand this reality Is not the way it always has to be © 2011 Mike Hougardy
38.
Rumor Control 04:36
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I want to be The one to see That you will never Let a word slip free And never Never breath another word of this again I need to see Your fear in me So I can know That we will always Be together Never breath another word of this again In a town this small, it's far too easy To know more than you should Hold your tongue if you know what's good Never breath another word of this again Rumor Control has it You've let down your guard And after trying so very hard To keep your comments to yourself Rumor Control has left it To me to decide The punishment for those who've lied Will be a great risk A great risk to their health © 2011 Mike Hougardy
39.
Left Behind 03:10
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I'm starting to think that it's just me The speed of change The cult of new technology But I don't mind If this is how it feels to be left behind I don't mind This is how it feels to be left behind It's getting harder to react Time is relative And that is just a fact I don't mind This is how it feels to be left behind I'm flying blind This is how it feels to be left behind If you leave here tomorrow You're never coming back You can beg, steal or borrow But nothings going to change the fact The story ends when the screen fades to black Fades to black I'm feeling peaceful in my skin I don't where you end and I begin It's good to find This is how it feels to be left behind I don't mind This is how it feels to be left behind © 2011 Mike Hougardy
40.
Raise the Dead 03:05
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Come inside you look tired I see the worry that you wear You can see it's only me So put your feet up ease your care It's been a long time since you and me Laughed at the days we were young and free And so laugh now like you want to be La la la la Happenstance, half a chance We could have kept it all together You left me for fairer sea And me I left for fouler weather All we have now is what we were Two short years in a total blur But I meant it all yeah every word La la la la Come on we're going to raise the dead Dust off the cobwebs, break some bread Come on we're going to raise the dead Talk about all the times we had Talk about all the times we have ahead I never thought that I would see the day When I'd have to catch up with you And you would catch up with me But here we are lost in our memories Stories of you fill my head Come on we're going to raise the dead © 2011 Mike Hougardy
41.
Pretty on the Inside 03:46
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I'm doing it right I'm taking my time I'm steeling my nerves Crossing the line I'm bracing for a backslide I'm getting pretty on the inside I'm laying it down Keeping it real Signing the papers Closing the deal I'm ready for the downslide I'm getting pretty on the inside I never thought that I would find it Or that I'd need to get behind it Beauty is fickle Pretty is as pretty does I never did I never could I never was I'm doing it right I'm getting it done I'm steeling my nerves For one last run I'm bracing for a backslide I'm getting pretty on the inside I'm on a roll I'm on a tear I'm working hard To get get somewhere I'm ready for the downslide I'm getting pretty on the inside I never thought that I would use it Or that I'd ever need to choose it Beauty is fleeting Pretty is as pretty does I never did I never could I never was I never thought that I would need it just find a vein and slowly bleed it Beauty is simple Pretty is as pretty does I never did I never could I never was © 2011 Mike Hougardy
42.
One More Time 04:03
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One more time to get it right One more time to feel the bite One more time to paint the town One more time to let you down One more time for old times sake One more time for your heart to break One more time to say I'm wrong One more time to sing along One more time to beat the odds One more time to curse the gods One more time to let you know One more time before you go One more time to set it straight One more time to stay up late One more time to feel your touch One more time to say too much One more time to see me cry One more time to say goodbye © 2011 Mike Hougardy
43.
The Storm 02:36
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Have you forgotten the gift you were given This condition you call livin' is a wonder to us all Too many nights spent in quiet desperation Searching for an explanation you hop will ease the fall There's a storm outside and it isn't hard to see It's taken on the shape of everything I'd hoped to be How long 'til I get my chance to prove There's an audience for me to move How many nights must I lie awake Trembling in my sheets Waiting for this storm to break All good things come to those Who make it through the longest nights The deepest lows They will find faith in the end And strength in all the pain they can transcend How long 'til I get my chance to prove There's an audience for me to move How many nights must I lie awake Trembling in my sheets Waiting for this storm to break © 2011 Mike Hougardy
44.
Get Ready, Get Set 04:06
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I’m feeling all my years There’s more than I remember And less than it appears But I don’t mind the lines They remind me of a journey Through another place and time Life is more than what you make it It plays out in real time It just goes on ‘til you can’t take it anymore A ribbon for the first to cross the line Get ready get set I’m not dead yet but I’m getting closer I’m getting closer Love is more than how you make it It plays out in real time It just goes on ‘til you can’t break it anymore A ribbon for the first to cross the line © 2011 Mike Hougardy
45.
The First Three Words 03:20
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Say the first three words That pop into your head There’s a general disparity Between what is seen and said It’s safe to say What people want to hear You dispense your niceties And then you disappear Reticence, the old crown prince Of nothing left to say you catch a glimpse, You drop some hints And then you turn and walk away I know it’s safe to say I love you dear It’s safe to say That your just telling me What I want to hear What I want to hear What I want to hear Say the first three words That pop into your head I never could believe a word A single thing you said It’s safe to say that There’s nothing to fear It’s safe to say That your just telling me What I want to hear
46.
I'm Doin' Fine 03:50
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Don’t say a word There’s nothing you can say I haven’t heard You’d like a turn But see I’m just not touched by your concern I’m doin’ fine Aside from everything that’s happening I’m doin’ fine Okay? Look there’s a point At which self interest crosses decency I’d like a joint Account of everything you’ve said to me I’m doin’ fine Aside from everything that’s happening I’m doin’ fine Okay? Okay? I’m sorry if my actions are affecting you But you don’t understand that you have choices I’m sorry if fractions are disturbing you But you’re the one who claims to have heard voices I’m doin’ fine I’m doin’ fine There’s no real subsitute for experience Knowing this I will plead ignorant at my defense With little foresight it occurs to me Stupid as it may sound You just can’t see Farther than You can see I’m doin’ fine I’m doin’ fine I’m doin’ fine Aside from everything that’s happening I’m doin’ fine © 2011 Mike Hougardy
47.
Fragile Little Thing (live) 03:34
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I got one, one last test Before I ride They're going to check my metal From the inside I don't feel better I don't feel a thing We both know what tomorrow Is going to bring I got one, one last test Before I ride I haven't felt this peaceful In a long while You don't need to worry There's nothing to bring Our time here is such a Fragile little thing You don't have to worry About anything Tomorrow is such a Fragile little thing When I get my body back I'll take you for a ride Show you how beautiful The sunset looks From the other side © 2011 Mike Hougardy
48.
Acceptance 03:31
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I don't like where this is going I know exactly where it ends There's an uneasy felling that's growing It might be time to make amends It's a long, long way to acceptance When you're this close to denial It's a long, long way to acceptance We might be here for awhile I can't remember what I wanted It's lost in the maze of what I've got But there's one thing I know Just letting go Is much, much harder than I thought It's a long, long way to acceptance When you're this close to desire It's a long, long way to acceptance When you're hands are in the fire There's a trip we thought was never ending Now we're starting to arrive I think it's time we all just stopped pretending No one gets out of here alive © 2011 Mike Hougardy
49.
It'll Be Good 02:55
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It'll be good. It'll be fine Over and over again I keep on feeding myself the same line My eyes are on the girl As she navigates a dangerous world I'll just repeat it until I believe it It'll be good. It'll be great My heart's already breaking Man, I can hardly wait I fell in love the first time I stepped outside my door I crawled back destroyed Just wanting more All I ever wanted Was to save the world for you Now I don't have any idea Of what to do © 2011 Mike Hougardy
50.
Crash and Burn 02:36
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Crash and burn When will you ever learn Crash and burn There's nowhere left to turn You made a point of making this a war Now you can't fight the feeling anymore Crash and burn When will you ever learn Crash and burn Sometimes the boys just don't return You play with fire like it's just fun and games Until your real desire goes down in flames Crash and burn Crash and burn I know your paragon is gone But you just had to linger on Crash and burn When will you ever learn Crash and burn Your guilt was never my concern You made your bed but you refuse to lie And once again you've taken to the sky Crash and burn © 2011 Mike Hougardy
51.
Overcome by Chemistry 03:19
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I know it's only an illusion But things are happening That feel quite real to me I work hard at cloaking my confusion But every now and then I need some reality I'm trying to regain the middle ground But I don't know the way I don't have the time to fuck around I'm losing me A little more everyday Overcome by chemistry Overcome by chemistry Overcome by chemistry The formula inside of me I don't eat I don't sleep I don't laugh I don't weep I don't feed anything at all To my chemistry Inside of me I know it's only an illusion But I keep waiting for the Wall to spin around Everybody has their own conclusion And they'll keep riding it Straight into the ground Overcome by chemistry Overcome by chemistry Overcome by chemistry I'm losing me I'm losing me © 2011 Mike Hougardy
52.
Candycoated 04:30
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My time is at hand I found myself down by the river Writing poetry in the sand The promises I can't deliver It's not my fault, I'm in Pain Didn't know that the gun was loaded I thought for sure we'd have Enough sense to restrain All the loss All the gain Heartache should be candycoated Red Means I'm dying here Blue There should be no need to explain My thoughts are running down Trying to get my head around the reason Why I love to hate this town The promise of another losing season It's not my fault, I'm in Pain Didn't know that the gun was loaded I thought for sure we'd have Enough sense to refrain All the loss All the gain Heartache should be candycoated Red Means I'm dying here Blue There should be no need to explain © 2011 Mike Hougardy

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This album is a compilation of songs from Avolition's year long, song-a-week demo project: Demolition 2011
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released March 22, 2012

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